It's been a long day, but I seem to have gotten a lot done. I went to the Post Office and finally mailed out Tim's CD that I promised him over a month ago... went to Respect Life and dropped off some outgrown baby clothes, as well as picking up some things they had that I needed... then I went to pee for the state. After all that I went to two thrift stores and obtained three pairs of long pants for each of my two younger boys, as well as a windbreaker-type jacket for my daughter. I also got several loads of laundry washed & dried, if not folded & put away... ran a load of dishes, and cooked supper as well as making s'mores twice for everyone (after lunch and after dinner) I even bathed the baby... which I skipped last night because it was cold and the heat is not working for some reason... good night!

Well, I guess I'm not getting much done. I should probably log off and get some laundry going... as well as dishes... but I'm so damn tired of both!

They want to make really sure you don't try to cheat on the urine tests. They take a lot of precautions. 1. The water in the toilet is blue, so you can't get away with adding it to the sample, 2. The back of the toilet tank is chained shut, 3. You have to lock your purse in a little box before going into the bathroom to give your sample, and 4. The urine collection container has a thermometer strip on it to make sure it just came out of your body. Of course, I DO know of ways to get around all of that, but I'm clean so I have no reason to want to cheat. For example, they sell these "shooter" things in bars in a tube... I've heard of people having a clean friend pee in one of those to take and substitute... but I suppose you'd have to stick it in your vagina like a tampon to get it to be the right temperature... and I don't know WHAT a guy would do... plus you have to fill the cup to a certain level, and I don't know if one of those shooters would hold enough liquid. There are also the drinks that clean your pee, and I know people who have successfully passed drug tests while indulging in drug use by using those, so I know they work, but I also know others for whom they did NOT work. I think if you follow the instructions properly they work, and they have a money back guarantee...

I have a few stops to make when I go out, so I've made some formula for the baby. I hope Frank will take care of her and not leave his dad stuck, cuz Bob's working 12 hour shifts right now and he's really tired.

I have to go pee for the state today... oh joy

It's cold out today, and our heater keeps cutting out. I think we need a repairman, but we can't afford it, so I guess it's time to bundle up 'til the temperature warms up. Chances are it's not going to work on A/C either, though, so it's gonna get hot in here, then. Sigh. It's always something.

I'm not feeling too positive right now. I had a rough day yesterday, didn't get much done, and I feel like my life is a neverending string of obligations that I've set up and no longer want to deal with. I feel enslaved and kinda hopeless. I have to keep reminding myself that I am only going through a phase and that this too shall pass.

The DCF worker called and showed up yesterday, I'm sure that doesn't help my state of mind. My shrink called and rescheduled my appointment for next week. Being loving toward my husband when I don't really FEEL anything is a strain, too, but I don't know what else to do.

Had a hard time getting up today... didn't get up 'til 7. Gotta go to the shrink tonight at 6... and the DCF worker hasn't called to come by yet this month, either. Wonder why? I suppose she'll come by before Friday (the first of the month) and I still have to go pee for them to prove I'm still straight...

Well, we made it to church... an exhausting experience. I'm still trying to get caught up on laundry and dishes, but it seems I never do... took a LONG walk with Selena, Joe, and Tim today. Very tired now.

I'm trying to get everyone together to go to church... not sure if it's going to work out. Be back later to report...

My daughter wants chicken noodles soup, and since we don't have any she's being difficult and says she doesn't want anything we have. C'est la vie! I'll ask the others what they want after I go to the library and drop off the videos that are due today.

Last night Bob and I went to the beach, but it was all drizzly, and we only had enough change for 1/2 hour on the meter. The first place we went to had BAD karaoke singers, and the second was so crowded, we figured by the time we got served our time would be up on the meter... so we went back to the pool hall and shot a few games instead.

Ha ha ha... I actually got here. Dunno how long I'll get to stay, but I guess I'll make the best of it while I can.

I guess I'd better close my blog for the day and get on to other things. It's been real, LOL

Bob and Sarah are going to buy some flowers to plant in the planter out front today. They have already prepared the bed, so all they need now are the plants.

Frankie just got up and I told him about the plans his father and I had for tonight. He's going to try to be home by the baby's bath time... he wants to go to his cousin's house this afternoon.

The kids are making noise, so my time is short... they'll be waking up the baby before long!

Bob just got home and told me he doesn't have to work tonight, so I guess we'll go out tonight instead of noon tomorrow. Not sure where we'll go or what we'll do though. Now to get Sarah to sleep in her own room...

Some days are better than others. I hope this is one of the good ones. It started out pretty good... I guess it's up to me to keep it going that way.

Selena let me sleep an extra hour today, so I actually got 8 full hours of sleep. I fell asleep before 10:30 last night, and instead of waking up at 5:30am today, she woke up at 6:30... so I didn't get online 'til around 7:30. If she would do that every day, I'd be much more well rested, but of course I'd need to get to sleep early every night, too.

My friend Rex finally got back online... he had taken a break from it for so long that his email box filled up! It's nice to have him around to chat with once in a while... although the more I chat, the less I get caught up on MY email!