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Sunday, December 22, 2002

I haven't been here in a while, and I don't have time to stay right now. But I've bookmarked it again (my computer crashed, and I'm setting my favorites, etc. back up now...)

I'll be back!

Saturday, November 30, 2002

My friend Frank from England is going to be here this evening. Not sure how long he's going to stay here in south Florida... he got a free trip to Orlando plus $300 to do a wiring job for a long-time customer of his, and figured while he was over here, he'd come down so we could meet in person.

Friday, November 29, 2002

Today has been absolutely GRUELING. I got up and folded the last load of Billy's laundry left over from last night, then took Sarah to the dentist, then went to Billy's & put away his clean laundry, plus I scrubbed down his bathroom and got the last few loads of his dirty laundry. I've just finished washing the last load of his laundry, and the second to last is in the dryer... sigh.

Oh, forgot to mention I was cleaning for Billy cuz he went into the hospital and had been so sick his apt. was a WRECK!!!

So... I'm hoping that by the time I'm done folding this last load of his laundry, they'll release him and I can pick him up from the hospital, too... but maybe that's too much to hope for.

Thursday, November 28, 2002

OMG! I can't believe it's been so long since I posted here! I guess I've just been so busy with school, it's completely slipped my mind!

SOOOOOO much has happened since the last post... we went to boy scouts, we stopped going, on Sarah's birthday we went to the zoo... Joey bitched all day, but they all got bags of free candy & stuff cuz of some Halloween promotion...

The following Saturday I think was the Web Club at school... it was interesting...

The car has a BLOWN HEAD GASKET (READ $$$$$$$$) AND MAYBE A CRACKED BLOCK TOO, because Bob didn't see fit to go get the damn thing fixed when it began to overheat... just kept on putting water in. Now we may be buying Buddy's black Lincoln from across the street...

Etc. etc. and so on. It's been a pretty good Thanksgiving, I can't complain (now) but of course I was bitchy earlier when I was cooking!

I have a ton of laundry to fold/wash etc. so I guess I'd better just bookmark this site on my IMPORTANT list and make sure I get here on a more regular basis again!

Friday, October 11, 2002

She finally went out the door... after being insufferably nasty to me.
I am sooooooooooo exhausted!
If Sarah doesn't get a move on, she's going to miss the bus today.
I gave up and drove the car yesterday. I'm glad I don't have school today.

I read the wrong day's selection on Wednesday, then had to read the right one. On the positive side of that, I've read what I need to for Tuesday, so now all I need to do is study for the quiz.

Wednesday, October 09, 2002

I'm getting very tired. Walking to and from the bus stop with a heavy backpack is exhausting... and apparently the car's not going to be repaired for ANOTHER week. They want it dropped off on a Monday or Tuesday... who cares what they want? It is ridiculous that we should be inconvenienced like this. We are not the ones who wrecked our car... we were rear-ended... the victims in the situation. They say the car is driveable, but with a taillight out I don't want to risk getting a ticket.

Frankie is treating me like dirt, and I'm tired of it. His girlfriend has become the center of his universe, and when I tell him to do something or not to do something, he just waits 'til I go to school then does as he pleases because he knows his father will let him do whatever he wants. This causes further tension between Bob and myself as I think he's entirely too lenient and permissive (read "doormat") and it just makes me sick. Divorce wouldn't help either, because then he would have even MORE license to spoil them when it was his turn to have them. Back to the old statement: I'd rather be a widow than a divorcee...

Tuesday, October 08, 2002

I talked to the doctor's office yesterday and they said I had to go through the emergency room for an accident-related injury. She did say I could try calling the orthopedic surgeon's office and find out if they would see me without going to the ER first... but either way, I don't really feel like going when I have so many other things to do. My neck still hurts, but I keep hoping it will diminish over time.

I managed to get to school on time riding the bus... but I jumped the gun and ended up getting off two stops too soon because I was so afraid I'd OVERSHOOT and MISS my stop. I don't know why it stresses me out so much. There's plenty of stops along the way, and if I miss one I'm perfectly capable of walking a block or two...

Monday, October 07, 2002

My neck still hurts... I may see about going to a doctor today. I just don't want to sit in the emergency room at the hospital for eight hours, running the risk of catching a communicable disease...
Today is going to be a tough one. I'm going to have to ride the bus to school for the first time, and I'm nervous about getting to school on time. I'll be glad when this day is over. I wonder how long it'll be before our car is fixed.

Saturday, October 05, 2002

It started out this morning, when I got upset because my husband stated the intent to take my son to get his learner's permit (for driving) Without consulting with me, and against my wishes... As it will add $250/month to our car insurance cost... for Frank to practice driving, he has to be on our insurance policy.
So THEN we went to the cub scout picnic, and on the way, Joanna (Frank's girlfriend) who came to help transport us all, cuz we don't all fit in our car... hit us (we had a car accident) So now our taillight is broken and the trunk of the car won't close.
I think Sarah (my oldest daughter) and I have whiplash, but I'm waiting 'til we've slept a night before going to have it checked out, because sometimes if they check you out too soon nothing shows up.
Well, the GOOD part is, now Frank is committed to getting a job to pay his own share of the car insurance rather than ME having to get a job and leave the baby for 12 hours a day (8 to work, 4 for school... plus more for travel time, really...)
I'm still not certain we'll get by without me getting a job soon... I don't know if we'll have to pay a deductable to have our car repaired, or if that will all be covered by Joanna's policy...
We need $48 for the boys' photo packages, and Sarah wants us to get pizza for her class for her presentation on the same day as the boys school pictures... so that'll be another $30 or so...
It (the car accident) was Joanna's fault. I stopped to let oncoming traffic enter the expressway ahead of us, and she thought I was going to go ahead and jump in front of them (perhaps because that's what SHE would have done?) Which makes me concerned about Frank driving around with her... I had already previously noted her tendency to speed...
I am really stressed out tonight :-(
Badddddddddddddddddddddddddd day.

Friday, October 04, 2002

I have so much to do today, and all I want to do is go back to bed. I have a dental checkup at 10 am, and a mountain of laundry... not to mention dishes... the rest of the house is a mess, too. Plus I need to do some reading for school. But I'll take it all in stride. After the dentist, I'd like to get a nap before I start trying to do anything else, but I can only do that if the baby will lie down with me.
Okay. She FINALLY got up... but she's being nasty to me. : (
It is SO hard to get Sarah up in the morning... even if she's had a nap after school the day before!
I am enjoying school, but I'm glad it's only four days a week. I'm exhausted!

Tuesday, October 01, 2002

My first day of school went well... Selena didn't seem to miss me a bit. We'll see how she acts by the fourth day...

Sunday, September 29, 2002

Selena just woke up, so I'd better start closing windows to log off. My time is up.
NOW I'm trying to quit smoking so we can afford DSL without getting rid of my prized second phone line... we can't afford to unless I quit smoking. Plus, I'd like to be free of that slavery anyway...
On the plus side of it, I AM glad to be in a cooler bedroom!
Last weekend we switched bedrooms with the boys... lot of work. Glad we don't have to do THAT every day!
It's so quiet here right now, I could almost believe I like it here. Unfortunately, I know that will be short-lived...
I'm feeling very lazy today, and I know I need to get up off my ass and get some things done, but I really just don't feel like it. I bet I'll be sorry...
I start school tomorrow. I'm very nervous about it. I hope I haven't made a huge mistake in committing to a 2-year degree program!

Wednesday, September 18, 2002

I am not patient enough to be a teacher. I don't think I'm ever going to go back to homeschooling again unless there is very good reason to do so.
Timmy annoys me asking stupid questions to get his homework done. Most of them are things he could figure out for himself if he would think first before jumping to ask for someone's help.
I knew it. Selena's already awake. Frank laughed at the tv in there and woke her up before she was even asleep for ten minutes. Sigh. My life sux sometimes.
I am DREADING the "switch" this weekend... Bob & I are switching rooms with the boys because Frank is soon going to have two computers and there is no room for them in the boys' current room. Also, the room the boys are in now is cooler than the converted garage which currently serves as the master bedroom. Plus the converted garage has no closet, and the closet is wasted on the boys... they just had it all piled up with junk & never used it.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it's quiet here for a moment now. I just got the baby down for a nap, and although she SHOULD take a two hour nap, she probably won't, so I'm gonna make the best of it. Timmy's at the table doing his homework, Sarah's still eating some spaghetti, and I don't know about Joey, but I assume he's doing his homework in the bedroom or I would've heard about it from Frank by now.
The boys are making me miserable. Timmy won't listen to Joey after school, and Joe gets frustrated and goes on ahead without him... today Timmy didn't cross at the crossing guard... so I guess I'm gonna have to go back to walking down to pick 'em up every day.

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

On the bright side, Selena seems to be learning to amuse herself for short periods of time. Right now she's unloading the "little people" from a box... uh oh... spoke too soon... now she's next to me banging on my chair with a plastic spoon she found on the floor!
Neverending adjustments... sigh. Well, we had a nice long weekend, since the younger kids had Yom Kippur off from school. Timmy got hurt last night, but he didn't hesitate to get up and go to school today. What a little trooper! So far they have been doing quite well in school. On Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday of last week I went to breakfast with Sarah. That was rough... being ready and leaving here at 6:30 am, but we managed! On Thursday we even took Selena along. Free food... yay!

On Saturday, however, the car broke down, and it's still broken down at the church where I had gone to pick up Joe after he had an outing with the church group. I think it's the linkage in the gear shift... preliminary estimate is $500 for a 5-hour repair... IF that's really what the problem is. I think Bob's gonna have it towed to a shop on Wednesday, and plan to pick it up/pay for it on Thursday when he's gotten paid. Sigh again... it's always something!!!

Thursday, September 05, 2002

The baby's sleeping, but fitfully, as she's got a cold/cough. She has an appointment for a checkup on Tuesday, but I don't think she'll be getting her shots if she's still sick.
I enrolled in a webmaster course at the college Frank's attending today. He is taking the network engineering course. It will take me two years to earn an associate degree. I hope I do well with it!

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

Well, it's off to another hectic day...
I have to get up at 4:30 am to get Sarah up in time to go to her bus stop... and she barely gets out of here on time. Today she was halfway there and came back because she'd forgotten to get lunch money from me!
Damn! These days I don't know whether I'm coming or going half the time... but so far the kids are doing well in school, and I'm trying to enroll in a web design/webmaster course myself. Wish me luck!

Thursday, August 08, 2002

Well, so far so good... but it's only the first day. I got up at 5 am and got them off to school, but it's going to take a while before I adjust to this routine...

Monday, August 05, 2002

I know, I know, I said I didn't want 'em in school, but I need a break. The baby's gotten very demanding, and they WANT to go to school SO badly... I figure it can't hurt to let 'em go for a while. Maybe I can even get a part time job and earn a little dough?
Well, mission accomplished. Today was a tough day, but I made it through it. I had to go have a test for carpal tunnel syndrome... and I took my two youngest boys along because on the way back we went for their certified teacher evaluations so that they can be placed properly in (gasp... dare I say it?) school.

Saturday, August 03, 2002

We went to the park (Greynolds Park) today. It was SO hot! I forgot to put my hair up... by the time we left I was DRIPPING! I gotta remember to put my hair up and wear a cutoff sleeveless shirt next time!
Ken Brevett called today... I haven't heard much from him in ages. He found me online by doing a web search on his own name, which he found on my song explanations page, where I mentioned that he had asked me to write a song about brotherhood, and the result was my song "Family". After he emailed me the first time, I got a second email from him, then today he called. He said he's going to come by here and visit next Saturday. I hope so! It will be nice to see him!

Thursday, August 01, 2002

Bob just left for work... but tomorrow night and Saturday night he's off. We are SO broke! I think I had better find some work, unless God grants us a complete miracle in our finances!
I let Frankie go out of town today with his girlfriend on a church-sponsored trip to Universal's "Islands of Adventure". I hope Jo (his gf) took her camera along! They should be back in Hollywood in about an hour, and hopefully home not too long after that.
I haven't been getting online very much lately... I mean, I usually get on every day, but only for an hour or so, not enough time to keep up.

Tuesday, July 23, 2002

I think I'm gonna write that song I've been thinking about for years... "I'd rather be a widow than a divocee" (if he drops dead, don't look at me)
I'm also sick of the way Bob hogs the bed so that I have to wake him up if I want to get into it. If I wake him up, he wants to hold onto me like a teddy bear, and frankly, I can't stand that. I wish he worked 7 days a week, sometimes, just so I could go to bed at night and sleep.
Frank's FINALLY getting around to mopping the floors tonight... so I suppose I'm in his way... oh well. I'm not real happy about still being up, either.
Once again, Bob's off work in the middle of the week... and we're broke. What pisses me off is that they called and said he could come into work tonight if he wanted to and he said no.
Wow... I haven't been here in a while. Good sign how out of control my life has gotten... ugh.

Monday, July 15, 2002

I didn't get online at all yesterday... it was such a busy day! We went to church, then I had a lot to do to get Joey off to camp... plus I cooked twice. Today I had to get up early to get Joey off to camp, and I don't feel like doing my housework, so I'm avoiding it by being online. Surprise, surprise...

Saturday, July 13, 2002

The baby is very demanding, and I haven't been feeling well lately, either.
I am having a hard time getting online for any length of time lately... gotta make some changes soon!

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

I hate it when he's online all night long, then still hangs out on the computer in the morning, playing stupid games. In fact, I hate relinquishing the computer to any of the rest of my family members, because all ANY of them do is play stupid games. What a waste of time. Meanwhile, I never have time to catch up on all my email.
I'll be glad when Bob goes back to work.
The whole family is getting on my nerves... they were all in the living room, except for Sarah... making noise, so I couldn't concentrate to read... now they've finally all dissipated.
Still working on getting over the cough, and sniffling a bit... but I think Selena's all better.

Thursday, July 04, 2002

I'm still not feeling very well, either, which doesn't help. Plus, Bob's off work, now, 'til next Wednesday, and I can't stand it when he's off work. Hopefully he'll do more than sit on the computer all night every night...
Lousy night... baby woke up in the middle of the night and did NOT want to go back to sleep! Now Bob has taken Joe, Tim, and her to Young Circle Park to see a parade, and I've put in potatoes to bake to go with the steaks we're supposed to be grilling for lunch. Dunno when Bob will actually get back, though...

Wednesday, July 03, 2002

Still sick, still rainy... oh well. No MAJOR disasters around here, anyway, just the usual slow decay...

Monday, July 01, 2002

I'm getting too stressed out. I feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack or stroke... getting too fat, still smoking Camel Filters, and not getting any exercise... ugh. I hate myself when I get like this!!!
It's been raining all day, and it's been a helluva day. Bob went out this morning to dry the laundry I washed, but he forgot one of the loads so I had to get Frank to take it to his girlfriend's house and dry it. The kids are all stir crazy and driving me nuts... I wish I could go out, but even if I could think of a good excuse to just go on out and enjoy myself, I look like hell cuz I'm still getting over this head cold, and I've got no money to spend.

Sunday, June 30, 2002

I hope I get out of this rut and come to a point where I have something more interesting than my boring humdrum daily existence to write about, soon!
I caught the cold that Sarah and the baby had... Sarah's over it, the baby's ALMOST over it... and I'm sick as a dog. Go figure. I'm glad THEY'RE feeling better, though!

Thursday, June 27, 2002

We went to church last night. We got there late, but we made it... then when we got home I had to wake Bob up to let us in cuz my house key was not on the keychain with my car key... but I put it on as soon as we got in so it won't happen again!

Bob decided we can't afford a dryer right now. I'm bummed. : (

Tuesday, June 25, 2002

Took Sarah and Selena to the doctor today. Selena got a vaccine, Sarah a recheck on her lungs. Doc says he wants to see Sarah back in a month, and if she continues to improve like she has been, at that time he'll discontinue all her meds.

Monday, June 24, 2002

Sunday, June 23, 2002

Frank is at Joanna's house painting the kitchen. He'll be home in another hour or so... I hope he's not too tired to be of some help when he gets here!
He's playing with her and being loud again. C'est la vie...
Now he's dumped her, and she still wants to play with him...
Now Timmy is attempting to amuse his baby sister... and it's hard to let him, cuz in amusing HER he's being very noisy and annoying!
It's been an especially rough day today. We managed to get to church, but while I was there I hurt my back, trying to pick Selena up. Then while I was in bed trying to rest my back, the baby fell off the couch and hit her head. : (

Saturday, June 22, 2002

On the way up there was a huge accident, and apparently on the way back, too. We waited through the whole traffic jam on the way up, but on the way back managed to escape it.
Bob and I went to the drive-in last night and saw "Windtalkers". It was pretty good. Last time we went to the drive-in we saw "We Were Soldiers". Interesting... LOL

Friday, June 21, 2002

Tuesday, June 18, 2002

Frank is being lazy about doing work people ask him to do, and it's irritating to me, because I have no income, and want him to be grateful he has an opportunity to put some money in his pocket.
I let Sarah spend the night at Ashley's last night and she still hasn't come home yet. I wonder if she's even woken up yet? She gives me the hardest time... I'm not looking forward to getting her up for school in a couple months.
Timmy didn't understand what he was supposed to be doing, and he couldn't comprehend my explanation, either. Finally, I asked Joey to explain it to him. Now they're getting along... wish it were always like that!
Now stupid waol has kicked me offline, so I gotta find what I was looking at before it happened. Aaaargh!
On the other hand, the evenings are going to be difficult, as I know they're going to resist doing their homework.
I think I'm going to enjoy having the kids in school during the day when they go this fall... but not sure yet. It's a lot of work to get them ready & get them there... I have to get up at about 4:45 am to get Sarah up so she can be at the bus stop before 6... then I have to leave here at 7 with the boys to get them to school in time for breakfast. ALL of them want to eat breakfast at school... which is fine, since we qualify for free breakfast, why not? Saves us some money, time, and effort...
My, where on earth does the time go? Whew! Took Frank to BCC yesterday, to investigate whether or not he's really interested in going to COLLEGE as opposed to TECHNICAL SCHOOL. He is supposed to go tonight, to an orientation at Sheridan Vo-Tech to learn more about that... time will tell.

Sunday, June 16, 2002

Managed to get to church & help out with the nursery today... there were two little girls in there who really liked me... but then they brought Selena over cuz she was fussy, and I had to go change/nurse her... and when I left to do that, the two little girls, Madison and Alexis, started crying as if I were their mommy... it was so endearing/heartbreaking!

Saturday, June 15, 2002

I'm so happy to have some peaceful quiet time all to myself... while the baby sleeps and everyone else is gone. I wish I could have this on a regular basis, but a little is better than none at all!!!
Oh yeah... I never did get around to telling about my birthday, did I? Let's see. Bob got me some clothes from the kids, and Frank bought me 5 of my favorite candy bar (available only at our local Target store)

We all went out to eat at Denny's, with a little help from Frank's girlfriend, Joanne, since we don't all fit in the car together at one time... then we all (also with Joanne) went to the movies to see "Spirit". It was the nicest birthday I've had in years. Oh, and the best part... Jo backed me a chocolate birthday cake with chocolate chips in the frosting... yummy!
Rain rain rain... it's pouring down outside. Sarah had wanted to go to the beach this morning, but the weather was already bad. Bob and I still haven't gone out for our anniversary, which was the 5th... last night we were going to, but by the time he was ready it was too late and I was too tired, plus the baby wouldn't settle down. So he and Frankie went out to shoot pool instead.

Now they're all at the movies... Frankie took Bob and the other kids to see "Attack of the Clones" as his Father's Day gift to his dad... I was invited, but declined since Selena didn't exactly sit well through the movie on my birthday.

Thursday, June 13, 2002

sharing a candy bar with Selena... she's fat & sassy! over 20 lbs, now
Sigh. Sarah just yelled to tell me the baby wants me... I had left her in her crib after changing her diaper... 5 minutes of peace. Coulda had 2 hours if I had only changed her diaper BEFORE nursing her!!!
So far so good... I think they're all watching cartoons.
I just nursed the baby to sleep... then noticed the odor coming from her diaper... had to change her, which meant waking her up. Damn! I wish I'd changed her before nursing her... but didn't realize she was poopy then...
Okay. I got the boys done with their homeschooling for today, and I'm giving 'em tomorrow off for flag day... since there are no other holidays in June to let 'em off for...

I fed everyone tacos, with a little help from Frank and his gf, Joanna...

I let them have their candy (dessert) then told them to clean their rooms, now they're all quiet cuz they're afraid I'll check and see that their rooms are not satisfactorily clean, LOL
I think Joey's biggest problem is that he won't ask for help when he needs it. He spends too much time paying attention to what other people are doing, and not enough attention to what he should be doing.
Joey is still not comprehending some of his work. However, I think they'll go over that in school... it's stuff that a lot of kids don't understand at his age, so I think it'll be okay.
I hope I can get the boys ready for school by the time it starts. They will be hard-pressed to fit into their grade levels...

It serves me right for having been so lazy about their homeschooling for so long!
Selena is getting to be very hard to handle... since she's mobile, she wants to get into everything, and requires constant supervision. I'd be afraid to leave for any length of time, because I don't think anyone else will keep her out of trouble.
I tried to log in here yesterday, but couldn't. I can't believe how hard it is lately for me to keep up online!

Friday, June 07, 2002

wow... it seems like I never have the time or energy to say much here... what a bummer

Tuesday, June 04, 2002

I had a great birthday yesterday... but I'm too tired to tell about it, just as I was when I finally logged on last night. Maybe tomorrow...

Sunday, June 02, 2002

Gonna log off
Shit. She's already awakened.
Well... a few more hours and I'll be 37 years old. Whoo hoo!
Just got done bathing her, nursing her, and getting her to bed. Hope she doesn't wake back up any time soon...
Baby's awake... time to bathe her!
I let Frank go out with Joanna today to TY park, and told him that he didn't have permission to stay out 'til 10pm, but didn't tell him when I DID expect him home... my bet is he'll show up at 9:30.
I see I'm going to have to hit the "post & publish" button from now on, instead of ctrl+enter, or it posts but doesn't publish.
She's sleeping now... wonder how long that'll last. Sarah hurt herself... cut her wrist while the kids were moving a board at a neighbor's house looking for lizards. I hope it's okay... don't wanna make a trip to the ER.
Baby's getting fussy too... so all signs point to logging off. : (
I'm gonna have to log off soon to do housework... but at least I made it here to say SOMETHING today...
I've continued to pass out flyers with Frankie's lawn service on one side and my errand service on the other side. So far no one is calling for my errand service, but there are plenty of people calling for Frankie. Oh well. At least one of us is getting some work!
We didn't go to church today. I had trouble sleeping last night... and Sarah wouldn't take her bath (as usual) plus she stayed up too late. Frank stayed out in the driveway with Joanna 'til after midnight... and when I woke up this morning and finally got out of bed, everyone, including Bob, was asleep... he in the reclining chair in Sarah's room. I'm tired of trying to get everyone to do things they don't want to do... on the other hand, without a leader, these guys will just wander around bline. God give me strength!!!

Saturday, June 01, 2002

Ahhhh finally finished my salad... baby's still going... like the energizer bunny!
Would you believe I'm still working on the salad?
I got Bob to take her so I can finish my salad...
Back to nursing her again now... so much for trying to eat my salad!
Joey had her. He just brought her in saying the bugs were gonna eat her up. It poured down rain last night, so there are puddles everywhere... but they're rapidly drying up in the 85 degree heat.
As soon as I stood up to put her down, she woke up. So I fed her lunch... and now I don't know who has her. Sarah took her out of the high chair, and I think she passed her off to Frankie. I'm glad for the break!
Ahhhh... she's asleep! Now if I can just put her down without waking her up!
Still nursing... boy can she ever take a long time to fall asleep!
Now I'm nursing the baby yet again (as usual) and hoping she'll go down for a nice nap?
I am still irritable, but I played frisbee with the kids yesterday, and that seems to have helped the wrist... musta snapped something back into place?

Friday, May 31, 2002

I feel like a big ole pile of shit right now.
I blew up at my family at lunchtime today. I know it's psychotic... but I feel helpless to change.
The chronic pain is making me suicidal. I wish I could have just ONE pain-free day!!!
I'm having an absolutely miserable day. My birthday's on Monday, and I miss my mother so badly around this time... it sux.

Monday, May 27, 2002

Someone stepped in front of a train tonight. I knew someone who did that 11 years ago... what a horrible way to die.
Baby's asleep for now... but I know she's gonna get up in the middle of the night. I need to start putting her back in her crib instead of being lazy and keeping her in bed with me. Keeping her in bed with me means she keeps nursing all night through... and keeping me awake, as each time she wakes up and wants to nurse she wakes me up!
The kids want to go to church Saturday night for some kinda fun night thing. I hope we can get 'em there!
I'm online again, 'til my husband gets up for the night. He's off work tonight because of the holiday. Waiting for him to get up gives me an excuse to try and get caught up again, as I'm currently falling behind...
If the baby doesn't stop waking during the night I'm gonna lose my mind. Ugh!

Sunday, May 26, 2002

I just made a "friend test". Curious to see how folks will do on it...
I think I'm about to get stuck with the baby.
Time for another cigarette. Something else I need to give up.
We went to church today... but I'm not getting enough done. I did sweep the kitchen and living room, and put a load of laundry in today... gotta get offline and get some more stuff done soon!!!

Saturday, May 25, 2002

Baby's fussing already, so I suppose I should log off and tend to her. I waited all day to get online, but, oh well!!!
Another boring day... not even worth writing about. I did watch a fairly interesting movie this afternoon, though... "Powder".

Friday, May 24, 2002

Sarah's on the phone with Jodi... the little girl who used to live next door.
It's time for Sarah to take her bath, but she's not doing it...
Bob just got up for work, so I guess I can go to bed now...
I'm having a rough time... I'm glad I'm going to the orthopedic surgeon on Tuesday... just not sure what he's gonna be able to do. the pain is really wearing me down, though!

Thursday, May 23, 2002

Well, the baby went to bed at 7 last night, so she was up at 5 am and wouldn't go back to sleep. I just now got her to go back to bed... so I think I'm gonna log off and snooze for another hour or two...
I woke up this morning with my arm aching so badly I could hardly stand it! I'm glad I called the doc yesterday to request a referral to the orthopedic surgeon!

Wednesday, May 22, 2002

I guess I'd better log off soon and get some housework done... although I've been terribly lax this week with my sore arm and all. If I don't get going on it it'll just end up one big fat mess. Gotta at least sweep the floors so that when the baby goes crawling around she's not a human dustmop.
Right now it always seems like one step forward and two steps back!
I will be so happy when the day comes that I can get more accomplished around here!
It's been a rough week... and not getting any better. I may have a broken wrist... but I don't want to deal with it right now, so I'm dealing with chronic pain...
Wow... been a few days since I made it here!

Sunday, May 19, 2002

Also as usual, the baby is demanding my attention, so it's about time for me to log off and tend to her.
As usual, the weekend's been rough... and the weather's all rainy and icky. I haven't been to church for 3 weeks now... and not sure if I want to keep going where we have been. Decisions, decisions!

Friday, May 17, 2002

Bob also took Sarah for her recheck at the doctor's office. He is supposed to make sure the ear wax gets cleaned out of her ear... as well as stop at Eckerd's to pick up her prescription for Zyrtec. We'll see if he does or doesn't...
Another day... sigh. Bob went to work last night only to do maintenance so he could get a 40 hour paycheck, but he didn't work a full eight hours, so his check still won't be for forty hours. Then when he came home he just sat on the computer 'til everyone started getting up, and went out to the store to get bread... then cooked breakfast. That was nice, but I wish he'd done it a bit earlier, rather than waiting... and delaying the start of my homeschooling efforts.

He also swept the floor, but not very well, as when I put the baby down on it she still got pretty dirty. Sigh. I am so tired of feeling like if anything is to be done right I'll have to do it myself. There is only one of me and too much for one person to do. : (

Thursday, May 16, 2002

I hope the baby gets back to sleeping through the night again soon. I need to get back to getting up at 5 am. That is hard to do if the baby wakes up before then, however.
Today seems to be running a bit smoother than most so far... (think positive, Lydia) it helps that I'm not watching the soaps... they eat up a huge chunk of my daily time.

Wednesday, May 15, 2002

Oh well. Time to bathe the baby and drop into bed for another night of strange and disturbing dreams...
I'm so stressed out... and I don't know what I can do about it. I don't have any money to go anywhere or do anything. Nothing I do seems fulfilling anymore. It's all just one big long boring blur.
I've gotta bathe the baby soon. She hasn't had a bath in 3 days cuz I nursed her at bathtime and she fell asleep.
Another crazy day. I've been in so much pain today I can hardly stand it!

Tuesday, May 14, 2002

Well, I'd better go. Maybe I'll get to come back and write some more later, but my life is pretty boring right now anyway.
Frank's getting tired of holding the baby... so I guess I'd better go fold my laundry before he dumps her back on me!
Nothing much changes around here, a little more work, a little less work... I've been in a lot of pain lately, but I'm not willing to go to the doctor about it yet.
I'm gonna have to log off and get some housework done. The kids need a little prompting on their schoolwork, too. I hope I can get back in the groove of getting up at 5 am again soon!
Seems like I'm only getting here every other day. I'm surprised I managed to get here today!

Sunday, May 12, 2002

Well... the baby's awake, and I hear some suspicious screaming outside...

Yesterday a neighbor had a birthday party for her two year old. They had ponies brought over for the kids to ride. Today is another neighbor child's 10th birthday, and we've all been invited over for pizza... but we just ate steak a little while ago.
Baby's gonna wake up from her nap soon, then I'm gonna have to give up on what I'm doing...
Bob's getting ready for work, now... he has to go in early tonight.
Joanna just brought over a few disks with pics her mom shot of her and Frankie last night before they went to the prom. I'm gonna upload some of 'em to my fan club and other club(s) I belong to.
Didn't get here yesterday... baby was making it hard for me to stay online.

Kids didn't really make it much of a Mother's Day. I'm kinda disappointed. Oh well. That's life.

Thursday, May 09, 2002

My back hurts... gotta get back to getting some exercise. It's hard to do with the baby always demanding my attention. But nothing worthwhile is ever easy, eh?
Bob and Sarah are leaving for the grocery now... time to get Joey started on his lessons.
My grief recovery group has been cancelled. Oh well... c'est la vie... so much for "getting help". At least I bought the book... I'll finish reading it on my own, but not sure how much help it'll be without the class.
Sarah and Joe are playing chess at the table... when Bob leaves for the grocery and takes Sarah with him, I'll get Joe started on his homeschool work. He's been doing okay, but he balks at some of the writing work.
Baby let me sleep more last night, but only because I kept her in bed with me from about 3am onward. Kept a tight grip on her cuz I was afraid of her falling out of the bed again. She's still feverish. I'm trying to get as caught up on email, etc. as I can, so I can devote the rest of the day to housework.

Wednesday, May 08, 2002

On a positive note, I'm almost caught up with my email to the degree that it'll be much easier to get through each day's reading because I won't have any backlog to go through. If I do it by next weekend that'll make a nice Mother's Day present for myself... cuz then I'll feel free to spend the day enjoying my kids, knowing that nothing pressing (other than housework) awaits me.
I hate it when I'm not well-rested... can't think clearly, and don't get much done cuz my energy level is zilch.
Trying to get the kids to do their homeschooling after the baby kept me up all night then fell out of bed when I couldn't stay awake nursing her any more is a bitch! Baby's got a bump on her head but seems to be okay otherwise...

Tuesday, May 07, 2002

I know my time is running out, and the baby will be waking up any time now. I guess I'd better start closing windows and getting ready to log off.
The kids' rabbits are always amusing... Timmy's "thumps" at strange times, making one wonder what on earth he could be thinking.
I've been trying very hard to get my email under control... almost there.
Well, so far so good today... managed to get up at 5am... but I'm sleepy! And sneezy, too. Can't take Benadryl and go back to bed, either, since I have to homeschool the kids and take a bath to take Sarah to the doctor's at noon. She's had a cough for a month or more, and if Timmy doesn't stop coughing, he'll be next!

Monday, May 06, 2002

Nursing the baby now, and typing one-handed...
I've got to take Sarah to the doctor... her cough is not improving. However, Bob's on jury duty this week, so I can't make the appointment for her 'til he's done and I know I'll have the car to take her.
Didn't make it here yesterday. Yesterday was a day from hell... I didn't feel good, but had to take care of the baby, etc. Glad it's over.

Got the kids working on their homeschooling work right now... Joe's reading and Timmy's doing workbooks. After lunch I'm going to have Joey do some computer work.

Saturday, May 04, 2002

Well, it's almost time to make them all come in... so I better enjoy my silent house while I can. I love it!
It is very peaceful here at the moment, but I suspect that's about to change, as sundown is less than an hour away, and the kids will be coming in. Right now they have Selena outside in her bouncer watching them play "hacky sack tennis" in the street.
I think I have the cold that the baby does, but a milder version... don't feel all that great, but not as bad as she obviously does.
My daughter, Sarah, made devilled eggs yesterday evening, and they got eaten up fairly quickly. Later on I made Kielbasa and Cabbage, which is a favorite of Frank and Joey's, but the other kids don't like it.
I got a lot more than usual done yesterday... washed & dried all the laundry that was in the hamper before sundown, although I didn't get it all folded or put away... also washed all the dishes that were in the sink before sundown, so that the sink doesn't fill up quite as badly today. PLUS I actually swept the house from the kitchen to the hallway... something that should be done daily, or at least 3-4 times a week... but seldom gets done.

Selena has a cold... she's all snotty and miserable. Poor thing. And Sarah's cough has gotten worse again, so I'm suspecting that she also has this cold on top of the cough she never got over from before. After she's been on the allergy medicine for a week (Tuesday) if she's still coughing, I'm making an appointment for her to see the doctor.

Friday, May 03, 2002

As usual, being up too early sux. I gave up on the diet/exercise thing 'til I'm through nursing the baby so I can take supplements that I can't take while I'm breastfeeding. I know... excuses excuses...

Thursday, May 02, 2002

I went back to bed at 6am yesterday and didn't get up 'til 9. Since I've started a new diet/exercise program, I'm caffeine-deprived... can hardly stay awake.

Wednesday, May 01, 2002

This getting up at 5am is really wearing me down. I don't see how people manage to survive with chronic sleep deprivation!

Tuesday, April 30, 2002

He just went back to bed. I'm going to log off at around 7 to prepare homeschool work for them.
Joey just got up and is eating cereal at the table. He got very frustrated trying to do the homework those shlubs gave him yesterday... it was really foolish of me to try and put him in school so close to the end of the year.
Here is a list I made:
Reasons to NOT have the kids in school: 1. Lice 2. Illness 3. bad habits learned from other kids 4. We have to work just as hard with them on their homework as we do homeschooling them 5. Timmy's not ready, and Joey's easily frustrated 6. The boys' glasses (easily lost, stolen, or broken, and expensive to replace) 7. school clothes to buy 8. school supplies need to constantly be replenished because they lose them 9. it feels wrong 10. the attitude of the teachers and staff 11. they learn the values of their peers, teachers, the school system, and the government rather than ours - values that may be diametrically opposed to our own.
Reasons to have the kids in school: 1. make friends 2. we don't have to teach them (which isn't really true (see #4 above) 3. OTHER PEOPLE think we should
So, that's my rationale. I had more than three times as many cons as pros.
Well... putting the boys in school was a disaster. The school was not prepared to place them appropriately, and I am going to call today to tell them I've reconsidered and will not be bringing them back.

Monday, April 29, 2002

So far so good... I managed to get up when I intended to, although Selena didn't go back to sleep after nursing as easily as usual...

Got the boys up and dressed, and soon I'll log off to dress, prepare lunch for the picky one, and get them off to school to be tested and put in class. I'll be glad when it's all over!

Sunday, April 28, 2002

Today has been really rough, and tomorrow promises to be even rougher. Oh me oh my...

Saturday, April 27, 2002

Frankie is sharing some papaya baby food with Selena right now. He likes the guava stuff.
I had the baby asleep on my shoulder just now, but when I tried to get up and take her to her crib she woke up.
Timmy's heating his frozen bagel for 55 seconds in the microwave... he likes 'em rubbery.
My ten-year-old is outside screaming, just for fun... I had to tell Frankie to make him come in. Now he's having a fit because he has to come in.
We have the water to the solar panel shut down, now, so it's not leaking all over the place any more.
The solar hot water heater has some major problems... dunno when we'll ever get it fixed.
wow... I'm really slipping, here! been a few days since I dropped in...

Wednesday, April 24, 2002

We have been trying and trying to get someone to come and repair our solar panel (to our hot water heater) it's leaking a LOT of water, and I'm afraid the city is going to come and cite us for all the wasted water. We've been using buckets to catch as much as we can for the garden and mango tree... but there's still a hideous amount of waste going on. : (

Monday, April 22, 2002

I just got here, but I've got to leave... oh look... I didn't make it here yesterday at all! My oh me. Well... Timmy is waiting for me because he wants me to watch a movie with him. So... TA!

Saturday, April 20, 2002

Uh oh... here comes Timmy. I hope Joey will keep her occupied now...
I just caught a break... put the baby and her bouncer out back under the tree for a while to play with Timmy, who can't go anywhere due to being grounded. Just gotta make sure that he doesn't pick up any rocks, and that the sun doesn't creep up and burn her!
It is hard to go online at any time other than early morning, before anyone is up. Right now I have far too many distractions!