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Wednesday, December 26, 2001

Well, I never did get to get back on last night... in fact, I was hard - pressed to even get the leftovers from dinner put away. By the time I finally got the baby to go to sleep for the night, I was too tired to do anything but lie down and go to sleep myself.

My husband bought the baby a swing for Christmas, and she got some other toys and clothes... the swing is a lifesaver, as it allows me to put her down so I can do things, and nine times out of ten she falls asleep in it. But when she falls asleep she ends up in this uncomfortable looking scrunched position, so we end up waking her back up! Sigh.

His online gf from Texas bought my husband a webcam for Christmas, but our computer doesn't have sufficient resources to use it. It's just as well, I get the distinct impression that they just want to have cybersex (yuck) using the webcams, and I really don't want any of my kids to wake up and come out here to see him doing THAT! It's bad enough that he clicks on every spam email he gets to sex sites... when he leaves the computer logged on to his screen I check to see where he's been at night and it's "lesbian" this and "free sex" that. Ugh. It doesn't make me want to be intimate with him, that's for sure... the way I see it if he's gonna get his jollies like that he's gonna be beating off instead of having the real thing, maybe permanently. Yuck, yuck, ptui! I HATE PORNOGRAPHY!

I don't much care for the idea of a webcam myself. I don't want people to see me. I'd rather let 'em imagine than be disappointed with what I really look like, sitting here in my nightgown with my hair sticking up, etc. Some things are best left private. On the other hand, it would afford me the chance to show folks what the baby's looking like these days, so I guess it's a toss up in some respects.

We also got a new printer for Christmas... but it hasn't made it out of the box yet. Only the "toys" and clothes actually made it out of their boxes. Some neighbor kid already broke one of my kids' toys... that made me pretty mad. The same kid's father bought him a bike for Christmas but couldn't be bothered to teach the poor child how to ride it... instead his older brother was out TRYING to teach him, and looking for MY oldest son to help. I told him my son was at a friend's house, but deliberately neglected to tell him which one... Frankie was enjoying his holiday, why spoil it? Another kid kept going through the neighborhood with his father on a new dirt bike... a case of a father attempting to relive his childhood through his son? Anyway, I hope he doesn't turn that kid loose on it in the neighborhood... it should be used in an open field somewhere. Very fast and very dangerous.

My husband bought my daughter a fancy bike - a Mongoose, and a lock for it which she says she won't use unless he takes her someplace because it clinks against the bike when she rides. The other kids got two different scooters (one has two wheels in the front, the other is a Razor) and a skateboard. Besides that there were art supplies, hot wheels and action figures, clothes, a purse and Teddy bear for Sarah, etc. and so on...

My son Timmy bought me a little glass box with a mirrored bottom in a yard sale across the street... as soon as I opened it my son Joe said "It only cost a dollar!" They are so amusing sometimes... I love my kids. I can't imagine my world without any single one of 'em.

I still haven't tried out my multitracker yet. I never seem to have time for anything. Not too much longer, now, though, before the baby gets a bit more independant and doesn't need/want my constant attention so much, so I'm trying to keep it all in perspective and be patient.

Well, I'm sleepy... so I think I'm gonna give up on reading any email or doing anything else online this morning in favor of going back to bed. Adios!